Life changes so very, very fast. On Friday it will be exactly one month since I was diagnosed with renal cell cancer, and on that day I will hopefully be having it all removed and that will be the end of it. While getting rid of my kidney and the mutation growing inside of it doesn't present much anxiety and dread, the thoughts of surgery, recovery and then the subsequent CT scans, X-rays, and labs every 6 months for the next 5 years and then waiting for the answer to the question, "Has the cancer returned?" produces a bit of anxiety. And distraction. I have been so incredibly distracted this week that I haven't been able to accomplish much of anything that is productive.
I do look forward to having the summer off though. I'll be able to get my nursing class prepared, and I'll have the chance to sleep in the mornings. I am hoping to learn how to use my mother-in-laws knitting machine, finish some of my projects that I started a long time ago. I also look forward to catching up on some reading. Have a bunch of new books and think I will also read the Harry Potter series again. So while I have a nasty disease and will be having a pretty nasty surgery, there are some good things coming out of it. The ability to "stop and smell the flowers" so to speak is something I will truly enjoy.
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